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| I would like to thank Jasper and Nicholas for their advice. I agree with them, I have not been behaving well in school. I have been too playful. At this rate, I would fail. I have wisen up, its time to work.
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| School is fun. I love school. I love the bus rides. I love the fact that I never laughed so hard before. I love the fact that there are so many basketballs courts in school and a huge big field. I love studying. I love school.
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| Just as I thought my life could get any worse. I'm really down. A good cry seems comforting, but it doesn't seems to help this time. I'm lost beyond words. There are many thoughts that are running in my head. None of them are helping me in this. Its making things worse. And I really thought nothing could be worse than the recent quarrel I had with my mother.
"What you told me, actually gave me hope. I actually had images of us together. It seemed.... comforting. I never felt so happy before. Like my life was... whole. Then I find out that feeling you had was gone. I felt that I've lost something. That I let something slipped off my hand. That I have lost something essential. Right now, my rational thinking just further depressed me. Trust me, if you know what is going in my head, you will understand why I feel so depressed. Because those thoughts in my head, has its' valid reasons. Right now, my mind is in a state of confusion. Because I know you well enough that you didn't tell me that intentionally. But I didn't see a point why you told me. I really don't know what to think. I really am lost for words. You will always be the same girl I know. But, I might not be the same guy you know. I still have feelings for you. Deep down, I still want to be with you. But I'm sure that I know what to do next."
I really need someone to comfort me and tell me that my life would be better. That sometimes, its not my fault that my life is like this. I understand that some of the things are really my fault. Like my family quarrel. But others? There are many incidents that made my life worse, at it is not my fault. But that is not what others think.
P.S. I felt really guilty and hurt when you cried. I'm so sorry.
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| My friend once told me that my blog posts are all so down and depressing. So is how my blog looks. Well, I guess I use my blog to let out all the things I'm unhappy about in life. I've been feeling down these few days. Its causing me to feel tired, tired of doing anything. I refuse to be that tired bros! Fuck it seriously. Why am I so down anyway? I feel so fucking stupid.
I'm gonna have fun man. And well, in whatever decisions I make or do, I'll go with it 100%. No regrets. I want to be impulsive. And I will be.
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| I just found out that the Christmas gift I got from my bro has a tear on it. The soft cover on the inside! Its blocked but I'm still damn disappointed because it is invaluable to me. Well, its cover and I didn't cause it anyway.
Tmrw, I have an interview for a job. 3 Weeks before school for my first interview, nice. Meeting Leslie at his house, not sure where though. After that, I would have bowling. Hope to have fun. I'm sick of staying at home.
Anyway, thanks bro for the book. Brought back my love of reading. Book is good so far!
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